Ambition

Thinking about our ambition that we were requested to fill up back in SMP and even primary school. I wonder whether anyone of us has achieved it. I am really curious about it.

One fine day when I was around 6-7 years old, my grandma asked my cousin and I what were our ambitions. My cousin proudly said "Doctor". I also proudly said "Soldier". I bet all the adults were impressed with my cousin's ambition but not mine. In fact upon reaching home in Kangar, I was scolded by my mother, "People's son want to be a doctor! You want to be a soldier? Eat bullets?". I was crazy about the TV series, Combat! So, I was influenced by it.

Eventually, the ambition evolved from a soldier into an artist. Again, my mother was not happy. She said, "Artist? Wait till you die only you may be famous...or maybe not". I loved drawing those days especially cartoons. Then, an artist is again being evolved into a scientist. Again, I was criticised with "All scientists are mad". I actually admired Albert Einstein, Thomas Edison, Alexander Graham Bell, Isaac Newton, etc. I was also crazy about astronomy and curious about our universe/UFO. I stopped revealing my ambition to my parents after that, knowing that I would never gain any support.

In the secondary school, all my ambitions were kept as secrets from my parents. I had ridiculous ambition such as a singer (actually I wanted to be a Heavy Metal singer with long hair but I sang like a frog...haha), an astronomer (carried on from my scientist ambition), an actor (a comedian actually), a pilot (to be exact it's air force), a sailor (a navy actually), a DJ (I loved radio), etc

All those exciting ambitions I didn't came close to achieve at all, except for one that I went on to the radio show because of my DJ friend's help. It was not a career anyway...it's a hobby.

This photo is for YY & PL who made me vomited blood till 2am the other day..hehehe:


Sometimes, when I read the cartoon of Calvin and Hobbes, it reminds me of myself. I had my imaginary friends including headless ones, armless ones, legless ones, I also imagined my family members as baddies etc. Lately I have been thinking that my life could be more exciting if I am a biologist exploring the jungle. I guess my "God mother" aka Puan Cheah might have cultivated her biology into my brain...haha. I loved biology comparing with other science subjects because of a teacher who treated me well with her encouragement. I hated chemistry because I had a teacher that discouraged me. I hope those who have their own kids will give more support to the kids instead of discouraging them.

So, what were your ambitions when you were schooling?